happy forever

2012-01-23T01:02:00.001+08:00

Happy Chinese new year people!! :D 恭喜发财，红包拿来!! Hope to get lots of hongbao this year! Gonna start from later~ hahaha. So excited to wear those new clothes and heels! :D hope everyone will enjoy their cny. 祝大家，身体健康，学业进步，快高长大，步步高升! YAY! So many people go back Malaysia to celebrate with their relatives there. I wanna go back too. At least for like 1 day? To collect some
Hongbao! Heh ^^ so Im so addicted to the show 原来是美男!! Damm nice and sweet! Envy the female lead! Super touching :') awww. I fell inlove with that Jeremy! He so freaking cute!! Heh. But XIAOGUI is still cuter! Happy chinese new year XG! Hope that you'll get even popular this year with more fans supporting you! Do your best in everything and I'll always be your fan forever!! Jiayou! <3 身体健康，财源滚滚! Hehe. So it's like 1am now. Jan's in malaysia. Hope she's having fun missing me! LOL. Jokeee. Busy night today. Love all those people who wished me Chinese new year! They make my day so awesome! <3 and that women who is married to ma.......... Wants me to go little India to bai Nian! Lol-Ed muchhhhh! :P kk I shall go watch my Jeremy now! Byeee :D enjoy this festival everybody! Eat more, play more, collect more hongbao! ^^ JOY IS HAPPY! :D

2012-01-20T19:49:00.002+08:00

THE DOG UP THERE IS FREAKING CUTE! CAN I HAVE ONE??? :D gawd! its been a long time since i post i guess. haven't been using my com for days... all because of maths. LOL. I feel so stupid when i can't solve those questions while all the others can. I NEED TO IMPROVE! GAHH. So i have been really busy this few days, just 3weeks of school, im already half died. LOL. HOW? and...... TMR gonna have reniuen dinner!!! YIPEE. and jan's going malaysia for cny. sadded. hahaha. XD excited to wear my new clothes much! heh, and today we had cny school celebration. chinese dance performed that really fast dance. its a pretty nice dance i can say.... but just a little messy cause we didn't practice well enough. :( but im sure we can do better the next time round. today was finee. :D tmr will be fun i guess? and sunday is chinese new year eve! $$$$$ (Y) hope to have lots of them this year! okayy, so i guess 3e4 is still not bad after the 3 weeks. friendly people, but some.... hmm.... LOL. shhh. kayy, i just wanna have a short post. wishing everyone happy chinese new year!! :D huat ar!! GET GOOD RESULTS!! (Y)

well lastly, happy birthday to you (:

2012-01-08T16:46:00.004+08:00

so the first week of school ended. not really familar with the class. felt so left out, and i really miss e3. E4 is really a very stressed class with all those smart people all around. They all look so feirce and unfriendly but i know it take time to know and understand people. So yeah, tmr is the start of second week of school. starting on amaths and other subjects too. so i suppose there will be alot of homework yeah. I really hope i can mix in with those e4 classmates.....
really have no mood to post so shall end here. haiz, byee. hope school will be better as the days passed... (:

2011-12-31T11:54:00.002+08:00

LAST DAY OF 2012!!! OMG excited for the countdown later at my cousin's house. But kinda sad that 2011 is ending so soon. i'm gonna miss this year where so many things happen. good and bad times~heh. i just hope 2012 will be a better year for me, my family and my friends (: As long as they are happy, i will be happy too. Im sorry for talking bad about people this year and all the things i promised yet didn't fulfil. Those people who i dislike and hate this year, i'll only dislike you till today (: from tommorrow onwards, its a new year, a new start. thinking back about this year, i really enjoyed this year very much. being crazy in school with my friends, being emotional because of small things and being the real me. that was what i couldn't do in primary school. This year is a memorable year that i'll forever remember. (: Next year, i believe more interesting things will happen to me... making new classmates, my brother's PSLE. being a cca leader. getting everyday filled up with maths homework. Being crazy with my friends. getting high on holidays, events and occasions. making everyday interesting and fun with family and friends. enjoy each day like its the last day. getting sad over things. getting mad over things but still get over those very quickly and smile again (: I hope all my friends enjoyed their 2011 and will enjoy 2012 (: enjoy your last day people. although its just an ordinary day like other days but i suddenly feel very emotional and feel like posting. maybe 2011 just gave me a very very very memorable memory. its definetly a fun and interesting year. (Y)

2011-12-28T18:53:00.003+08:00

well i'm kinda worried for you next year. your so called friends. heh. goodluck. 2faces friends you have. sometimes those people who think too highly of themself should really go bang the wall. Thinking about our class this year... 2Faces Beaches. But recently i saw a status on facebook. This girl who is my student care friend, she posted something like this "I dun hate you. i dun hate anybody. i would not hate anybody. The most is i dun like you and not hate" I mean yeah... we shouldn't really judge people or hate them. we have our own life, they have theirs. How they want to live it, its up to them. (: But just an advice, treat people like how you want them to treat you back. (: well, i think i should really learn to forgive and FORGET. i want 2012 to be a better year than 2011. i want people who is TRUE to be in my life next year. i dislike people who acts infront of people. yeah... just feeling abit pissed off. But its okay now. (: i shall not care about it ANYMORE. i wish i could. (: It's not worth my memory if the other person doesn't even care and seems enjoying life. well good for you den. those friends you make? not all are good. i didn't say they are bad, but just... yeah. watever. kk byee. and MERRYCHRISTMAS PEEPS. LOVEYA AND PEACE! (Y) dance awesome todayy. superr awesome! ME LOVE DANCING~ <3

2011-12-25T00:10:00.001+08:00

Merit Christmas everybody!! Merry christmas to janelle and Laymei!!! <3 joy to the world~ didn't get to text your cause your still in Malaysia. Heh spending my Christmas with my family~ niceee (Y) ho ho ho! ^^ shall post again tmr!

2011-12-23T23:15:00.001+08:00

23/12/11!!! <3 黑心伤品 album realeased! 祝黄鸿升专辑大买!! :D 加油哦!! So all his songs can be heard on YouTube todayy~ the songs are all super nice!! I swear every single one is nice!! :D can't wait for 28dec to get his album!! So yeah Jan! Come back quickly and go get the album with me!! ^^ I know you are excited even tho you are in malaysia now~ go get some wifi and listen to his songs urh! awesome shit. :P heh. So yeah, Laymei and jan are in Malaysia now. Have fun babes! ^^ come back with presents yeah! LOL. Joke :P miss both of you.... A little bit! :P heh. Waiting for ylbfb to load now~ Kayy it's loaded. :D yay. Oh ya before I end my post shall post what happened today yeah? ^^ went out with vanessa, jenelle and Huishan! Went t1 with Shan and Jen to do van's cake first. And we surprised her with the cake afterwards! :P she was very touched! Aww! An early birthday surprise for her urh!! <3 sadly cannot celebrate on her actual birthday becos she gonna celebrate with her family... But still hope she enjoys her 14th birthday!! :D den we headed to singtel shop to ask if vanessa's phone got stock. She is gonna buy samsung galaxy s2~ wow! Lol! Heh. Den went to tampines cc de burger king do homework. Everyone was hardworking except me... >.< hahaha. So yeah, today was meaningful! :D

Janelle kang cai en and quek Laymei faster come back! Got christmas presents for your ehh! Want anot? ^^

Okay byeeeeeeeeeee :D

2011-12-20T15:53:00.005+08:00

Hello, im back from malaysia. So i have many things to blog about. :D shall start from my malaysia trip den. (: It was fun but real tiring trip tho.

Well, we sat bus there and the bus was really uncomfortable to sleep. couldn't sleep the whole night. ._. wow. the bus journey was 8hours. It sure killed me that night. Cold and uncomfortable night. well, so we reached there at around 6a.m? and alot people came to fetch us. felt so honoured! hehe. so we went to eat dim sum for breakfast? such an early breakfast yeah? >.< Didn't eat much tho. so yeah went to grandma's house first. Its really awkward at that time. Couldn't find anything to talk to my cousins. so yeah entertained myself by watching TV. but all the shows are in cantonese. Obviously i don't understand but im still watching it. So yeah after awhile, i started getting along with my cousins. (Y) so yeah first day was entertained by movies and shows. dinner was cooked by my grandma. it was delicous ttm. Then the adults had durian for dinner. i wanted to eat, but im seriously too full. Day 2 was super tiring cause we had to go visit grandpa at the cemetry and then went to some mountain to explore. walked for hours and hours. Lunch was pizzahut! And we went to restaurant to had dinner. 10++ people in 1 table. we had to squeeze like madd. But the food there is delicous ttm too. After dinner, we went to shop around the shopping center and had supper. went to some high class coffee shop and after supper, went to watch midnight show. mission impossible! :D it was awesome i swear! hahas. so yeah went home at around 3am? and still had to wash up and everything. I was half died that day! LOL. so next morning woke up at around 10+ to have breakfast. Had noodle for BREAKFAST. Lunch was tibbits. Dinner was prepared by grandma. So last day over there, brothers and cousins were photo spamming. took pictures of my unglam. ._. And i was bullied by my youngest cousin. OH ya, and i was bitten by the dog! PAIN LIKE HELL. okayy, so we played in the room, making it look like a mess after we left. Everyone sent us to the bus and we bid farewell. well, this time the bus was 5star so it's much better than the previous one. This bus can watch movie and play games, so yeah i watch dairy and the wimpy kid the movie! It was nicee :D AND YEAH~ the security in singpore is really scary. >.< so yeah... i reached singapore around 5am. went home and slept till 12? shiock max. so yeah there's still other things that happened in malaysia but lazy to write everything out. hehe. 3days is a really short trip. but no choice, bro had to rush home to take back his N level's results. He scored well i heard. hahas. And my eldest cousin in malaysia is super handsome. OMG. hahas but look abit like ah beng. Look abit like korean also. their skin all super soomth sia. jealous! so yeah, i shall end here. (:

when i came back, there's good news for me. xiaogui's new songs are realeased!! LIKE DAMM NICE CAN! plus 3 in one day! imagine how happy are all the gui mi! i bet everyone will be like trying to memorize those songs just like me and jan. well, i shall spend my day today memorizing them den ((: his songs are really awesome! and he wrote all those lyrics himself! worth everybody to listen to his songs urh! :D I can't wait to get his album!! his album realeasing on 23 i guess~ woo. kayy 黑心，涩谷，太平时空! GO LISTEN KAYY! (Y)

And yeah, jan and laymei gonna leave for malaysia on 23rd. both on the same day. wow. they are so awesome... leaving me in singapore. >.< im gonna be so bored den. shall find stuffs to entertain myself. And since they are still in malaysia on christmas, i shall not give them their christmas present! hahaha just kidding. but probably not able to give them before to leave. so yeah, come back den give :D AND I FREAKING GAIN 2KG after i came back from malaysia!! everyday eat supper y'know! I'm so gonna eat lesser now and try losing weight before sch starts... okay thats all i wanna say. BYEE :D have a nicee holiday! although its gonna end soon!!

2011-12-15T15:46:00.002+08:00

HEY PEOPLE! I'm going malaysia tonite! yeahh~ MISS ME YO! ^^ HEH. I was excited at first but now i tend to be a little nervous and scared. Its been years since i met my cousins there. AWKWARD FOR SURE. :$ But still, i wish to have fun there with my family :D hope to do some shopping there so i can get some nice things for me and my friends. :P Wonder what we're gonna do there... (: So yeah, going there for 3 days. will be back on monday morning. fast trip. hahas. So i won't be blogging for the next few days. Hope there's internet connection, so i can at least know whats happening on facebook~ GAHH i can't live without facebook! heh. I've been playing sims social on my phone these days. THE MONEY IS ALWAYS SO LITTLE! >.< makee me wait like madd. LOL. Its kinda fun though. I love these kind of games. :D so yeah... i spend my day on the computer today. still haven finish my holiday homework. I'm really lazyy i can say. will do when im back in singapore...(i hope so) why is the holiday homework so much and so difficult. @#$!%& YEA...2012 is coming in another 2 weeks time. preparing to send those long lost friends new year texts! :D best time to have a nice chat with people whom i don't contact much now. :D HAHAS. so yeah teach jan how to download itunes just now, she said it was fun .__. MADDGIRL! LOL. okayy shall end here then cause father is back. BYEE :D MISS ME EVERYBODYY.

2011-12-12T21:28:00.003+08:00

HELLO! updating it again! my blog is so updated this holiday! :D Somehow, i love this holiday! Everyday seems to pass fast~ YIPEE! HEH. went out with my beloved friendss today! Had lots of fun taking the MRT the whole day~ HAHAHA. we didn't get lost but we ended up starving there. we only had our lunch at 4pm+ okayy, thats a very late lunch! but i still had my dinner cause mummy cooked so i shall eat :D There's delicous food for dinner... CHICKEN NUGGETS, VEGETABLES, EGG and SOUP! ^^ YUMYUM. Currently, my stomach is getting bigger and bigger. IM NOT PREGNANT! LOL. just... FAT! .__. i'll try eat less from now onwards. IM CRAVING FOR YOUGURHT! GAHH. lovin it! <3 shall go buy yougurht for lunch tmr. good way to slim down :P Hmm... its gonna be a boring day tmr. NOTHING TO DO. but... i got a task- to teach my bro and plan study plan for him .__. ME MYSELF DUN EVEN HAVE ONE, still ask me plan for him. Dad's mood isn't good these day. me no like. my mum is better these day. haiz. going malaysia on thrusday... NOBODY MISS ME! :( SADDED MUCH. hahas. hope dad's mood will be better when we go malaysia... >.< Hope to have fun there! YAY. A little excited :P Noww... i have no plans for the rest of the holidays. i feel like going shopping, but i know my friends are broke. jangjang. how ah how. LOL. nvmmmm. i shall try completing my holiday hw. There's still lots more i havent done yet! IM LAZYY and i've forgotten how to do alot of things! Not prepared for sec 3! -.-" But i'll shall be a good girl, gonna TRY do some tmr :D heh. okayy update again next time~ OH YA! WAITT. My grandma just came back from hongkong with my cousin and she brought me Iphone cover(S) and jeans :D woo! ILOVEHER! <3 although i haven see those presents yet, but those things are from hongkong ehh~ and sit areoplane come here de. LOL. kayyyy shall end here -bye-

PS: i got the same blogskin as someone. really sorry. didn't notice at first. will change when i'm not lazy. heh. but im currently superb lazy. shall change maybe next year? LOL

2011-12-11T23:00:00.001+08:00

Helloooo. I'm going out tmr! Yay! Its suppose to be a real happy thing... But I'm a little worried now. Cause dad dun really allow me to go Marina barrage with friends. He say is dangerous... But I really wanna go. I know he is worried, but hey dad... I really wanna go somewhere I really wished to go. I haven been going out with friends about a week. Staying at home all these days. It's time I go out and relax abit right? I hope everything gonna be fine and fun tmr. Not gonna update anything to Facebook about tmr. Or else dad will kill me .__. I said I was going shopping. But I dunno if he heard me. Gawd. But i told my mum I'm going out. She didn't know where I'm going too. Sigh, gonna be back home soon tmr so that they wun ask so much. Best before 6pm yeah? (: I just hope my parents wun think too much, Singapore is not that dangerous. Not everywhere. .__. they must go out and take a look at the world. And not only stay at home and watch those videos about gangsters and stuffs. It will only lead to them thinking too much. Hmm Im posting here cause I feel bad towards my parents to bluff them. But I dun mean it. I promised that I'll return home safely. I'm 14 (: although not yet adults but in 6 years time. I'll be one. I should learn how to protect myself already. My parents should really look at the positive side. Haiz. Kay, it's 10.57 now. Tmr is Monday! And the dramas will be updated and there will be new episodes! ^^ been waiting for them for 1 week! Finally it's monday again! Heh. Gonna wake up early tmr to watch them :D kk, goodnight everyone! Hope tmr will be a fun day for me. Pray that my parents will not scold me. Ahhh. *prays* and yeah... GWS dad! ^^ I know you wun see this. Hahas. Im lame. Byeee :D

2011-12-07T13:35:00.002+08:00

谁还记得谁第一次牵起手
谁记得谁第一次不肯走。。。
2011, its really a great year for me. many things happened this year. many great memories i have made. I learn many things too. Having a boyfriend isn't really that great after all. when he was once everything i ever wanted but now i find it really a joke. To have a fight with all my family members and relative... now when everything is back to normal, they are all back to protect me. When i think back and i realized everythig they did was just to protect me. But i'll stay strong myself. Go through all this rubbish and become a better me. I can't forget him cause his part of my memory. But i'll never go try remembering everything that happened between us. let the past be the past. I hope after this december when the new years starts, I'll get over you, totally. HEH. well other than him, i learn things from friendship. I'm actually a bais girl who treat certain friend better. i follow my heart and realised different people have different places in my heart. i treat them differently. therefore it may lead to unfairness and misunderstanding. for every 11:11, i wished for the happiness. Thinking back, all i ever wish for was just simply being happy. Its the most important thing for me. (for now) 2012 is coming, im leaving 2011 deep inside me. its really a great year for me. :') and i hope 2012 will be too :D hehe. OKAY BYEE. :D

2011-12-06T23:18:00.003+08:00

see that cute guy on top? his everywhere in my FB wall. gawd. Look at me and jan's blog~ all about him. crazy over him even at this timing! HEH. He is just awesomely awesome! and WELOVEHIM. okayyy. changed my blogskin and details. LOLOL. i was bored! jang jang~ HE IS TOO CUTE FOR ANYBODY NOT TO LIKE HIM, THEREFORE HE IS LOVED BY ALL GUI MI! <3 forever and always :D heh okayy post again tmr! BYEEE. :D

2011-12-06T19:22:00.002+08:00

NYHAHA~TODAY WAS FUNFUNFUNNYYY. LOL. I THINK WE'RE MADD KIDS. HEH. WENT TO BUY BOOKS TODAY. IT WAS HEAVY HEAVY. :( I THINK BECOS OF THE BOOKS I BECAME SHORTER...HAHAS. THE BOOKS COST ME LIKE $200? YEAH AND GOT FREE GIFT SOMEMORE. LOL. SAW MANY PEOPLE TODAYY. I LOVE SCHOOL. YEAH BUT MATHS GONNA KILL ME NEXT YEAR .__. I THINK I BECAME STUPID DURING THE HOLIDAYS. AHH. HEH. IM EXCITED FOR 12DEC NOW!! YAY!! LOLOL. YOU KNOW I KNOW EVERYBODY KNOW! ^^ IM ALSO EXCITED ABOUT BUYING NEW CLOTHES ON CNY! GONNA BUY SOME NICEE CLOTHES!! NOT LIKE THIS YEAR'S. TOO...ERR... UNSUITABLE FOR NORMAL SHOPPING. HAHAS. OKAYY TODAY WAS SPENT MEANINGFULLY NOT LIKE OTHER DAYS WHEN ITS JUST COMPUTER AND ME. >.< AND YEAH MY BLOG POST IS IN CAPS CAUSE IM LOVIN IT! ANYWAYYYYYY I HAVEN DONE MY HOLIDAY HW! ALL HAVEN DONE! DIEE. OKAY I SHOULD START... LIKE TMR? HEH. YEAH THATS A GREAT IDEA :D OH AND ALSO I NEEDA EXCERISE!! I NEED!! FAT ME IS FATTENING DAY BY DAY. WITH ALL THOSE FAST FOOD. $%^&*#@ I SHOULD REALLY GO FOR A LONG RUN SOON. MAYBE AFTER SHIBIN COME BACK FROM LUAS IM GONNA ASK HIM TO RUN WITH ME. CAUSE NOBODY WANNA RUN >.< SAD LIFE. EXCERSISING IS GOOD Y'KNOW. EVERYBODY SHOULD DO THAT. HAHAS. OKAYOKAY, SCH GONNA START IN A FEW MORE WEEKS TIME. LIKE 3 WEEKS? IM SCARED FOR DANCE PRACTISE NOW. REAL SCARED. GAH. BUT WELL IM NOW CURRENTLY ONLY EXCITED FOR 12DEC TO COME AND HAVE FUN. :D YIPEE. HEH AND IM GOING MALAYSIA ON THE 15TH. MISS ME EVERYBODY. ALTHOUGH ITS JUST SHORT 3 DAYS BUT....HEH. I KNOW EVERYBODY GONNA MISS ME! :P RIGHT? LOL. I THINK NOBODY IS READING ANYWAY. EXCEPT FOR SOME FANS OF MINE. HAHAHA. KIDDING I MEAN FRIENDS :D GOODFRIENDS THAT READ MY AWESOMELY AWESOME BLOG POST. IM SO BORED. LALALA. ITS EVENING NOW. WAITING FOR DINNER. BUT IM SO NOT HUNGRY. GONNA EAT A LITTLEEE ONLY LATER. :P OKAY SHALL END MY BLOG POST HERE. SAYONARA PEEPS. ^^

Im satisfied

2011-12-02T22:30:00.002+08:00

These days, although life are simple and not much things happen... i understand happiness. Happiness does not need too much things. Just the people you love, and people who love you. I tried ignoring those people who have too much things. they are so greedy so i assume they dun need me den (: I hate it when you go around to show that you are popular and that you are happy. maybe from today onwards i won't take it seriously den. cause im not supposed to care. i just wanna live my simple yet happy life. with my family and friends around me. (: maybe while reading, people have someone in their mind about who im saying... but dun assume. it may cause misunderstanding yo! but if you come ask me who... i wun say too. :x hahaha. i would really love to go out and have fun with my friends this holiday but... we all need some MONEYY! everyone lack of it now yeah? heh. but im trying very hard to save now :D yeap. hmm i really sorry to vanessa jenelle and huishan. wun be going to study with you girls tmr. not in the mood to study yet. :x heh. PS. felt really bad. but i know your will understand right? :P anywayyyy, actually im really kinda pissed off now about that person. i know i shouldn't be pissed but.... i just felt really pissed. But i shouldn't be that bad. if i want happiness i know everyone would want it too. i shouldn't go destroy anybody's happiness. I'll give up on this. I'll look forward to next year :P getting to know my new friends and new people~ okayyyyy blogging again soon cause im bored. lolol. kayy BYEE. :D

dun judge

2011-12-01T23:27:00.001+08:00

IMPISSED. GET IT? SUPERDUPER.okayyy watever.watever.watever. just freaking hope i'll get over this! kay goodnight! bye!

2011-12-01T22:50:00.003+08:00

hehe, i think i look pretty in the photo on top! LOL! okayy BHB right? HEH. photo is edited tho. LOL. okayy today is the start of decemeber. it was rather peaceful and relaxing. nothing much happened today. woke up at 1+ today! awesome? hahas. im excited about going to marina barage with my friends! yay! planning to go there next week? YIPEE. say the truth i haven't been there... what a sad life right? hahaha. so im really excited yo! *laymei, im waiting for your milo* LOL. There are certain things that i kept inside me, this few days... realising how foolish i was. You make me look small. always. okay watever. i shouldn't talk about this. hahas actually im really bored now. can't sleep. gawd. hahas but someone is worst den me! 3+ den can sleep! siaoo. hahaha. i really wanna go some fun places with my friends during this holiday! Ahh. espeicially going to difference classes for some. everytime i thought about it, i really feel sad... having a 2 year friendship... i dun wanna lose this friendship. :( Sooooooo, i'll make sure i go to her class everyday to disturb that silly girl with jan! LOL. But no matter what class each of us go, we have our own dreams to work for. I have always believe that once a friend, always a friend! no matter near or far we are, doesn't matter we dun see each other for years. A true friend will always be in your heart forever :D HEH. I'm CHIM YO! yeap! quite a long post yeah? proud of myself cause i haven't been blogging this kind of post. I really love blogging. I've been blogging for about 3 years? hehe. although lesser people are blogging now and all using facebook,twitter, and tumblr, im still using it cause ILOVEIT. nyhahahaa. okayy gonna end the post den. byeeee :D

HAPPYBIRTHDAYDUMB. :D

2011-11-29T21:32:00.001+08:00

Heyy you are finally 14! Hehe. Hope you enjoy your day today! :D im really glad to know you. Thanks for all the wonderful memories and what you've done for me. Stay awesome and awesome! Hahas. We are gonna be classmates still for the next two year~ woo! Hahas. Okayyy. BFFs! :D I said what I want to say on the letter le... So I shall end here :P heh.

Today celebrate jan's birthday. Surprised her by cheating her that I will not come. Hope she likes the surprise! Hahaha touch until cry you Mei you! ^^ hahaha. Den after that we slack all the way~ >.< and jan's mum damm good! Treat us sushi for dinner!! ^^ thanks so much! Lol, and after dinner we went to simei cc and played with our hair using the hair straighter!! Ahh I love my straight hair! :D LOL. Yay. And I had fun today and taken lots of photos. Waiting for them to be uploaded. Hehe tired but meaningful day! Heh. Hope you enjoy your birthday Jan! :D once again... Happy birthday!! <3

Hope you are reading this

2011-11-23T23:43:00.001+08:00

Busy week for me. Real busy. Heheh but I freaking got to see xiaogui real life!! He is shuai tyvm! I swear! And he freaking shake me and Jan's hand and even spoke to us!! Lol. He is super friendly!! Hahas. ILOVEHIM. I mean WE LOVE HIM. <3 gawd, I think I saw him 3time live alr bah. Okayy I know cannot compare with those other fans. They are like so muchh crazier den me. Hehe. Okayokay. Tmr going out to watch movie. Breaking dawn and 一泡而红. Awesome lurh~ :D but $$$$ fly away. Haiz, still worrying about the Sunday thing. Dunno if can Anot. Waiting for senior to reply. >.< hmm okay anywayyy, I got to see him real life and even hear him sing real life I'm alr like happy die me y'know!! Hahas. YAY! (Y)

Well, this one is for the tittle on top. I really miss you. So much so much. I really wanna shout it out loud. No matter how busy I am I'm still thinking about you. I really wanna forget you. Please. Get out of my mind. Missing you is like hell. Cause it hurts when you know he is there but yet you can't go there. I find no reasons to hold on. But why... Why am I feeling so... Haiz. :( okayyyyyyy. I wanna forget you. Ahhh. Kbye. Dun appear in my mind again please. (: thankyouu.

Freedom

2011-11-18T20:03:00.001+08:00

Tired much. Serious this month .__. exciting but seriously I'm really can faint. Going out and going out. Day after day. Spending so much time and money. Coming home late. I'm really a bad kid and need some time management. After everytime I come home... I really feel bad to my parents. I'm forever not in time. Say 4-5plus come back but can 7++ reached home. I really wanna change this habit but... Firstly I leave far from any place i go. Secondly, time with friends were never enough. Thirdly, I freaking love to slack and do things slowly. Gawd if only I had freedom I wun feel so bad. My parents are really scary... Nobody knows. Everytime I asked if I can go out.... See their face expression, can go out also not happy. Im freaking busy next 2weeks. Damm I feel so tired. Even now I can feel the tiredness. I can't have fun like that. I hate that everything clash in November and I had nothing to do this December. .___. seriously. What's the problem man. Why make everything so busy the next two weeks. How to have fun like that? My brain can't think. And I'm broke thinking about all the things I need to buy and everything. I used up all my piggy back money and now only left pathetic $2 inside. Im really really broke. And my ezlink only left like $1+? How go out like this. And my parents isn't gonna give me any money even when I'm going out. See times like this? It sucks! Although how much fun I can had with my friends but after that everything in my heads are problems after problems. I've always wished on every 11:11 that things can be peaceful and fun and everybody to be happy. Will it happen? No more irritating problems? I hate to see people unhappy but I can't satisfied everybody. And I'm so tired. So so so tired. But anyway. Yeap xiaogui coming! Heh. Should be excited and happy and everything but... I'm so so so so so tired. His events are all clashed. Come on... Problems problems problems!!! :/ I know get to see him is my dream. But really as long as I see him once I'll be really happy. If Im gonna Attend all his event.... Im really gonna be tired like $&@!?
Hmm just hope November can be fun but not so tiring. Heart pain sia me... $$$$$ all fly away. >i'm a bad girl who spend away all my parents money. Not like my brother... He knows how to save. Aiya. Failure much arh me. Hungry now. .__. Jang jang. Kay shall end here. (:

How to love.

2011-11-14T22:23:00.001+08:00

I'm pissed. Angry. Sad. Disappointed. Tired. All those negative emotions are in me now. Dun ask me why I'm feeling this way cause I dunno why too. Just feeling really negative and feel as if I'm having a distance between the world. I dun understand. Damm I feel so useless. I'm like always late reply ppl. I feel so bad. Argh. I feel so $&@!? Everyday eat sleep at home. Watching those drama and living in my own world... And everything had already changed yet Im still at the same place. Finally realizing that a person doesn't need another person forever. People change (: and yeah I'm single!! I really wanna shout this out loud. Hahaha. Okay I'm MADD. Kk Byee :D

11:11 i wish the best for everyone.

2011-11-08T21:56:00.001+08:00

YO! Finally posting something happy. Cause I'm feeling happy now. HEH. Went out with barbie and three musketeers! :D awesome friends for my awesome day. Went to bugis. Shop shop shop! Spend bout $20? And make my ezlink card today. (: bout $30 worh. :'( wasted. HEH. But anywayy I enjoyed my day today. :D im excited about Friday but I scared my father dun let me go. Cause end kinda late. :( shitzxc I hope can urh!! Hmm soooo it's the 2nd week of holiday! Yeap I falling in love with the holiday! <3 LOL. Hope everyone enjoys their holiday yeah~ byeeeee :D

i really wanna be happy

2011-11-05T17:00:00.002+08:00

2011-11-05T16:54:00.003+08:00

im in love with these cute doggies! ^^ they are so adorable!! hehe. currently listening to some radio songs~ LOL. bored ttvmmm. boring saturday urhur. kayy just feel like updating a little. just a little short one. yeap, LOL. im lame BYE ;P

i dun feel like talking to anybody but..... only you (:

2011-11-01T21:20:00.001+08:00

I really wanted to talk to have an happy ending. But it doesn't Want to. Every thing is wrong. Is this a good way to start a brand new month... November? I thought it would be the best month...cause many happy events are gonna happened. But now. All that left is worrying if I should even care. I really wanted to care. But I know I'm no one.

I'm bored like hell shit so I'm posting/blogging. I love to vent out everything here. Is like a cool shit place to say what I want.

November pleaseeeeeee be good. I begg you yeah. I'm really tired. But Im not saying october isn't good. Happy memories in there too. :')

2011-11-01T20:29:00.001+08:00

Hahahaha. Omg, why am I so stupid... Thinking that it's our fault and I should maybe like talk to you. Wow, since you are much much much better without us, I wun put in any effort too. Seriously. That's why we ended up like this. You dun need a thousand friends. Since you have them, we are longer needed or worth. Cause you never had that lost feeling so you will never know how to treasure. Kay watever, I dun wanna ruin my novemeber. So yeah, welcome November and goodbye October. (: November please be a better month yeah (:

2011-10-29T23:31:00.001+08:00

Am I able to really let you go and forget the past? Really leaving all those messages and memories behind... Im gonna miss everything... Everything that belongs to us. How I wish I could make you fall back for me.... But I'm really just a dumb girl who dun accept the fact. I'm really insane and stupid. Holding on to something that I shouldn't. Visiting your profile everytime and checking if you're online. Even if so... You wun talk. I wun talk. It's still the same. Last time or now... I'm really aching. I can't control my tears as I changed my phone. But now I change back to the old phone again... I decide to at least keep what's beautiful. Not only your texts, but all my awesome friends long and sweet texts. And everytime I read them I'll be like awww. <3 thats why I always keep texts. It's always been what I love to read the most. But everytime I read yours... I know you still mean smth to me. But I hope I'll let you go soon yeah? (: okay it's 11plus now. Goodnight, Sweetdreams. Anddd, I disturb jan's sleep just now. I dun let her sleep! Yeah~ it's funneh. :P Heheh. Byeeeeee. :D

2011-10-21T22:47:00.002+08:00

2011-10-21T22:40:00.003+08:00

lets me post something happy this time round. im suree there still some happy things for me to say, don't i? okayyy, today's post activity was BORING SHIT! hahas but still had fun at certain activities. example: recess! okay im just kidding! heheh. yeapyeap. next week no post exam activities lo... :P those activities so tiring! hahas. but its super sad we dun get to skate!!! :( I WANT. hahaha okayokay. jan told me to post that she is "cute". welll..... hmm jan, see that dog ontop. you are as cute as it! :P heheh. CUTE RITE?

okay. fine. i shall stop being so in considerate. later people say i dun care again. well you'll never know what im thinking YO! i just wished SCHOOL ENDS FASTER. get to know what class we go FASTER. den i shall start deciding what to do den.... (: okay everybody, tired me is gonna go sleep now. NIGHTS. ^^

2011-10-18T21:18:00.002+08:00

how true can this be. i walk pass you, look down and my heart aches. i told myself not to care... i really did. i walk to the toliet... i knew you were there. how come i still went? i must start changing and stop wanting to see you. seriously, i need to forget about it. my friends did stop me at times... thank you (: i just wanted to prove, without you... i'm okay. anyway, I LOVE MY FRIENDS. LOL. love making LOTS of noises in the macdonal, and when we stop laughing... actually the whole place is super quiet! hahaha. XD and everyone who see us will be like "shhh..." heheh, even teachers say im noisy! HELLO! i'm just being sociable here~ kay, i guess I AM OKAY NOW. forget about whats unhappy and move on. (: my results were okay... not too bad (: THANKS GOD AND MY PAPERS! you all did well! :D better den i expect for some... *winks* gotten 5 As! YAY! *shows off* hahaha okayyyy! i KNOW ALOT PEOPLE GOT MORE DEN ME :(( well its alright... i did my best! hmm still haven decide which class to go to.... LALALA.

....

2011-10-17T22:55:00.001+08:00

Imy. Do you? Forget it. Goodnight.

Will anyone listen?

2011-10-16T23:03:00.001+08:00

Now everything is wrong... Everything. Whole day stomach pain. I didn't even have a good chat with any of my friends today. He hurt me once again. Family doesn't understand me. Results isn't gonna be good. Want watch drama on com, lag like hell. On phone also lagg. Lay in the bed for whole day. What's life man? Seriously... I want to give up. I want to forget. I want to cry. But I can't, I won't. I know some things... I just didn't say out. How do you know it's not hurting me? How do you know I didn't care? How do you know it doesn't bother me? Or simply... Everybody thinks I'm nothing. The world can abandon me anytime. This is how cruel it is. Face it joycelyn. I'm forever alone. Just like today. Alone. So congrats to those people who wants to see me fall. I'm falling. But I'll smile my way down. I dun need any sympathy. Get it?

Happy Birthday my bitch <3

2011-10-14T22:08:00.001+08:00

Hope all of you had fun today. (: Especially you, Laymei! Heheh. :D we planned veryyyyy long de leh. And it's from the bottom of our heart to do all this for you! Heheh. You should be touched!! :') we hoped you really enjoyed today and of course the rest of your life too! Must stay happy forever Kay! Your cheerful attitude make alot of people like you!! So I believe you will find your prince charming soon. (: Heheh. Dun see hot guys face red red urh! Lol XD hmm known you for about 1year plus le~ you have been such an awesome fren and listening to me tok craps everytime... ILY LURH!! <3 SUPERRRR much kayy! Heheh. And the barbie and the three musketeer will stay forever Kay! Next year birthday must celebrate again like this okay! Even more special urh~ :P hehe Qi dai ma? Anywayyyy, HAPPY 14th birthday babe!! :D stay chio urh!! BFF <3 hmm lets plan for the next two birthday girl's birthday together okay? Make them so touched like you! *.^ Heheh. Okayokay... Had fun today. (: I believe everyone is tired... RESTWELL Kay! Goodnight everyone. (:

Laymei is finally 14 yo! :D

Itis already 1:30am now. And i am missing you.

2011-10-12T01:33:00.001+08:00

Well I actually stayed up because of art. But also because today... YOU officially is free now. Congrats den. Sorry for all those burdens to you. Yea, I look like a total fool. Y'know. Telling how much I still love you? And you just had the 'finally free' mood. Yea you're happy... What about me? Perhaps thats what I wanted too. Freedom. Cause it's seriously so tiring. Since you don't know how to treasure me, its time I treasure myself. Thanks alot on how you settle this. You made me loss 100% hope for you back. Goodbye.

Kayy time to sleep. Nights.

How to describe this feeling...

2011-10-06T19:33:00.001+08:00

I have no confidence in this. I feel that something gonna go wrong... Something thats gonna hurt me. Insecure, I feel like dying. I'm worried my friends will leave me. It's so hard for me to stay with them as I realize myself having serious jealousy problem and attitude problem. .__. I knew it but I couldn't change... Wow. In the other hand, I was not sure if he love me anymore. Cause I felt that I give in more than I received.... I dun understand why he cant tell me those things he kept inside, I told him everything. Distance are drifting? Im afraid to lose you. But I should head for their advice... If you kept me just for the sake of keeping me... I should let go. Y'know, I really wished I meant something in you. Like how I do.
But the most worrying thing now is gh exams. I think I'm gonna die. 8more papers to go. I didn't have any confidence in any of the papers. NONE. But people around me were all so confident... I'm so worried my results gonna drop like shit... It's really really the worse thing that could happen to me this year as I actually wasted my whole year getting this kind of results. I truly hope that god can bless me and make my wish come true. (: I hope that my friends will forever remain as my best friends no matter what happen. Hold me tight, dun let me fall. Please. The 4 of us has gone through so many things... If it not happy den it's not the ending. We will end up to be really really best friends cause I believe in us. (: Heheh.

Serve me right?

2011-10-05T11:41:00.001+08:00

Okay can.

2011-10-02T16:10:00.002+08:00

i'm so tired. wow. so many too say yet speechless now... carry on with life, just gonna work on my exams now. BUT MY FREAKING BRAIN DOESN'T WANT TO LISTEN! :/
i hope someone kill me now, what on earth is happening to me?

Sunday night

2011-09-25T22:26:00.001+08:00

I give up totally. I know it's gonna end soon... This time is a fact. I'm not gonna act strong and pretend nth happen. I'm gonna cry my heart out today night, everything gonna be fine tmr. (: why didnt I see clearly what's happening... Now when it's time to let go, I couldn't. What is this man. Goodnight everybody. It's just another day that had past. What's life?

Happy birthday!

2011-09-25T10:37:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday ek!!! Stayyyy happy, cheerful, hyper and CUTE! Hahas :D enjoy your 14th birthday yeah! :D
Loveyoumuchmuch. <3

Sunday morning

2011-09-25T10:33:00.001+08:00

Morning! It's Sunday and tmr is monday. Lol. There's school tmr~ *jangjang* okayyy, I'm in the exam mood now. Studying these few days... Although with some distraction. Haha. Im planning where to go after exams!! Omg, I wanna go to the beach badly!! :( and many more places. Thinking how to celebrate Laymei's birthday! 19more days! Heheh, den after that is Jan and anryl's birthday~ Heheh. Guess I'm
Gonna spend quite alot of money! $$ but it's okay, I'm still excited! And soon soon it's my birthday. Lol, 4more months only (: must remember hor everyone! (: kayy enjoy your day. Byezxc. (:

Stop bootlicking

2011-09-24T17:52:00.001+08:00

I hate how you ALWAYS do that. You knew we both like XG. But you always say about XG to her infront of me. Wts you want?! Me to jealous? And it's like you told her only. Not only this time, it's been ALOT of time. I just didn't say it out. Maybe Im not as crazy as her for XG. But stop bootlicking. I had enough. And yes, I'm jealous. After reading this, please stop your stupid acts. I dun give a damm from today onwards. Doing secret things behind for everyone... Making everyone trust you? I JUST DIDNT SAE IT OUT only! You have been doing that for as long as I know you. Why can't you treat everyone equally? _|_ Im official tired of your lies. I tried helping you when you ask but what you gave me in the end. I dun expect anything now, if you dun trust me den stop telling me. I dun mind. 2 weeks left only isn't it? Bye.

When you are gone.

2011-09-24T13:32:00.001+08:00

I finally understand. You dun care. What a joke. Im such a fool... Thinking you care. 7months? It's just a joke man. I know your feeling fade, I'm just waiting for you to say. I dun wanna get hurt, but I have to face it. We were never meant to be tgt, cause I know you didnt love me that much that could change you into someone who will do anything for your girl. I shall stop lying to myself and believe your love was true.

There we go again.

2011-09-22T22:06:00.001+08:00

Ignorance for just one day, I'm missing you already. I tried forcing myself to study instead of thinking about you... It didnt help. So many problems these days. Teenager's life are getting harder as people grew and change. You can't change a person opinion of someone/something anymore. They dun trust anyone but just themselves. I've cried, laughed, smiled. But my emotion deep inside my heart is like -> ._____.

2011-09-21T21:03:00.001+08:00

Hello. Testing out my phone's blogger (: kayy, bye (:

2011-09-21T20:00:00.003+08:00

life's unfair. im going insane in this world. things doesn't goes right and just simply messed up. WTS. everything! i wish i could go back to the days when i was 3.... everyday was just a game for me (: i didn't know whats was love, betrays, lies, and hatred.
you couldn't give me the things i wanted, and i eventually turn those expectation into dissapointment. when will we ever be like them... i have given you enough time. its time now, do something.
on the other hand, im confused about smth else... something that would never be solved. All these stuffs really got me moodless. dun blame me for being emo, I REALLY COULDN'T STAND IT.

dissapointed.

2011-09-15T22:00:00.004+08:00

hiii! *smile* today was a peaceful day~ lalala. didn't had much things happen today. well but sadly laymei didn't come today. IMISSYOU. hahas. kk, had fun during SFL today. got to know what job i could do (: AWESOME YEAH! im a manager~ woots! $$$ had laughter with friends and mr chew. LOL. after sch, went canteen and had my lunch with jan. we ate noodles and we are still not full. so we went to buy snacks. so is SUPER FULL after that! :P denden, i saw mingliang they all... *my hair was messy* hahas, i was SHY. kayy, den went to bused home. when im home... i started decorating my room and taking pictures of my cute little babies! :D aww~ and myself too. (: hmm packed my room and is all clean now (: 3 cheers for me!

Every girl needs that guy who she can wrap her arm around. The one who will kiss her on the forehead when she’s sleeping. The one to wipe away her tears and tell her she’s beautiful. The guy who just doesn’t compare to anyone else.

2011-09-14T20:18:00.003+08:00

i have so much to say, but no one wants to listen. cause i know i have been repeating it like a million times. but still i kept asking, cause i'm unsure of what to do. i'll just keep waiting till i hear an answer i would like to hear. i know i'm totally mad this few days. randomly saying hi to people around me, playing my jealousy game and my whole shit attitude. wts. how could my friends stand me? well... but now when i wanted someone, i realised im still alone. i blust those music in my ear hoping i would wake up and its just a dream. lyrics of songs make me tear... i was thinking of him the whole day. yet i was nothing in him. i mean... i am something but something that is not that important isn't it. cause i hope when i make that choice, i wouldn't regret. YOUR FEELING CHANGED. I DUN HAVE A REASON TO KEEP YOU ANYMORE. GET IT?

if only my love for you was not that deep, it wouldn't take me this hard to let go.

2011-09-11T14:17:00.005+08:00

its the last day of holiday yo! :( There's school tmr and i'm still not in the mood to study ANYTHING. gonna have chinese oral and home econs test after sch tmr. like stress only. and i hope that things gonna be alright for this new semester... i really hope and wish that its gonna be a happy semester. things hasn't gone that well last semester and it really got us all not in able to concentrate. i dun wan history to repeat. yepp. Still thinking that it was my fault... how sorry can i be?

Y'know... seeing couples break, my heart breaks too. cause all i wanted was everyone to be happy...

2011-09-09T23:02:00.002+08:00

hello~XD went out with a buanch of awesome people today! well, its the only day i enjoyed during the holidays (: although i had to spend my day with CARS around me! LOL, we went to watch cars2 and they went to play car game after that. heheh. after that we went to buy koi and went t1 timezone (: played some basketball game. its cute yo! i'm lovin it. XD heheh well, went back at around 6. it was early, but to them... its considered late -.-
well i was damm pissed that they wanted me to watch that teenage love show. like wts. trying to educate me again? enough ._.

kays, thanks much to mingliang, junjie, jonathan, fauzan, julian, junwei, zhiwei. well jp didnt come... sadded. yes imma only girl. k, fine. but xinying came after i left... :( hmm thanks for making my friday look awesome. (: had fun.

2011-09-08T18:57:00.002+08:00

helloooo~ im dying of boredom yo. say cheese! (: finally i get to go out tmr~ lalala. okie, yes i went out today. but to do project hor XD yes maths iw. was quite easy... LOL. but not sure correct anot. spend like 1-2hrs onli :P so yea came home early. den went popular to buy stationaries... spent $16+ yo! *heartbreak* for just a few things... haiz. i gonna learn how to save my money~ heheh. kays nth much~ *_^ BYEZ

2011-09-06T21:23:00.004+08:00

hey, i spent whole day at home yo! stuying! HEHE :D yepp, im guai. it wasn't that bad since i have my computer. spent my day watch zhen ai lin bei~ WOO. XG! cute siah~ IM LOVIN IT. heheh. well, laughed pretty much because of that dumb dumb jan's texts! okie, she is mad. :$ hmm no naggings today so well its pretty fine today (: well, i did some homework today and realized i really had to buck up... but just dunno how to start. LOL. kk, i'm current like dissapointed in something... well, but im not gonna mention :x just hope it realizes itself. hmm nothing much of today~ but im getting smurfy these days! hehe watched smurf 2 times already and i was asked if i wanted to watch 2 times again. well... i'm broked yo! :P okie, ILOVEHOLIDAY cause i gotta sleep late and wake up late! YAHOO~ (: woke up at 11+ today! shoick or shoick. im suppose to go study date with huishan they all... but i can't go. :( im sorry peeps. if only things hasn't change den it might be easier for me to go out~ hmm okie, well im craving for yogurt now! YUMYUM. right now man! awww. okie shall eat tmr (: SET. KK, BYE (:

is anyone even reading? WOW. :(

2011-09-05T22:26:00.002+08:00

its been super long since i used my old computer. i finally got it back (: yep, moved in my new house already. But sadly i didn't moved in happily. okay, its not my fault. they wanna think so much... den what do you expect me to do? I REPEAT, I WILL NEVER BREAK UNLESS HE REALLY BREAK MY HEART. well, you've heard me. i'm gonna hide between the lies and pretend its over. they wanna check, go ahead and check. lalala~ i dun wanna care anymore. (: HAPPYGIRL97 just wanna get things done. :D BE HAPPY. i still goes to school and i still see him so... whats the problem? HAHAS. hmm lesser lesser contacting my friends now... you know what i mean. am i really gonna lose frens like.... cause.... yea. forget it :x
okay, well... its been long since i talk about whats happening recently. all those previous post were about feelings yeah. hehe okay today was.... fine ._. i guess. went to nanyang poly for certain interview. yeah its awkward. it was a long day... watch smurf in between the break. WOW. hahas smurfs are cute little blue stuffs (: HEHE yepyep. went home and totally got a nagging for like an hour? @##$%^&*()&^%$@# currently locking myself in the room enjoying my computer~ its so long since i touch it. HEHE :$ well, i just wanna say all the best to everybody cause life is hard but we still have to move on. OH YEAH~ there's no sch tmr and im gonna sleep double my time! XD gonna wake up when the sun burn my butt! and den i'm gonna start my study plan tmr~ i'm gonna work super urber hard for EOY! :D JIAYOU! hehe yepyep. streaming yo! no kidding. kk, what crap am i talking about! LOL, guess everyone's tired. hehe kays NIGHTS :$

2011-09-05T19:24:00.004+08:00

Why can't your be like other parents? Seriously! Think so much? WTF? Like think too far le Kay. Other kids may do it but not us. You dun understand me, you dun understand him. If you had understand, you would have accepted it and seriously get your Mind clean instead of always thinking about those idiotic sick things. Like seriously, who dunno watever you have said. But it all doesn't applies to me cause the only reason is all because you dun want me to be in relationship! Like WTF? Where the hell is my freedom. Yes you given me a lot of freedom previously. Thank you. But now, all of your are like insane ppl staring at me 24hr. I hate that. Friends are nothing? You have no friends but you cannot criticize my frens man! Like Wts! You said wht he was stupid, you are the stupid one. He did nothing but purely loving me. Is that wrong? Kay, fine. You dun wan your daughter being loved isn't it. If one day I really turn emo, you are to blame. I'm seriously tired of the nags. Like what's wrong with all of you? What. Century already? I thought your were open minded people. A buanch of adults questioning me with those idiotic question. Ask me dun lie, I said the truth. I said I was with him and yet your couldn't accept the fact. I'm really tired living in this house. Seriously. It's not like I hate your. But sometimes I wonder why would I have such parents. More understanding parents is what I need. I know you want me to understand how your feel... But it's like can't I enjoy my teenage life? How I wish I got some godparents or something. Or an adult who might side me instead. Seriously, I really feel so irritated by my parents and everybody. Yes I have changed. Changed into a not so good girl. But if your could accept the fact am with him. Maybe I would talk to your den. Explain how we started and everything. But if your only cared if we were still tgt, den forget it. I wun say anything. Yes I might get hurt with him and my feelings mixed up... But so what?! Isn't that what I'm Suppose to go through. If your think that it's gonna ruin my life den that's too far you know. It's crazy how your imagine things. Tired of being under the control. Stop wanting me to be your good girl anymore. That's not me. If only your could accept the fact, things wouldnt be so bad. If only your didn't know till we could last as long as we could, things would be better. Now what? Break? Dun break? I know they are not gonna be easy on this... I'm afraid the person getting Hurt would be him instead. Maybe I should let him choose his way. I'm
Sorry but I love you. My parents dun understand that teenagers know what is love too. If only I had parents like them. But I guess my parents are just tok disgusting for me. Stop saying they care and etc... It's totally disgusting. Like eww. I never wanted to live in this world. So I wouldn't cared if I ruiny life. I just pray to god that they will forget about this and move on. I pray to god I dun have to lose my friends and him. I rather die. I'm serious. ._.

2011-09-05T18:58:00.001+08:00

I dun want to talk cause it's irritating YO! Stop nagging. I'm serious. ._.

2011-09-05T18:54:00.002+08:00

又不是这样就不孤独

2011-09-05T18:53:00.000+08:00

Everyday nag. Idiot. I'm listening to his lecture now. Haha. K bye. I hate it.

2011-09-03T23:23:00.002+08:00

Nobody's with me. Everybody think it's so easy. You never know how hard I spoke back to my father. I shouted back just to keep you. I didn't promised him just to keep you. Yet maybe I made a wrong choice. Every single person I spoke to about this told me not to worry, but how do you expect me to run away from this when I'm gonna face my dad everyday. And I dun think is only my parents who knew about this. My whole family including my cousins they all. How am I gonna face them explaining everything. Stop wanting me to solve everything myself, cause I hate the lonely feeling you know! Forget it. It's suppose to be a happy day yet its ruin. HAHA. Well done. Anyway, I know it's hard for me to find a reason to go out now. And my dad gonna be real strict towards me now. Here goes me 'awesome holiday'

2011-09-01T17:42:00.002+08:00

I should update my blog cause I'm so bored! Gawd! Today is teacher's day but I ain't happy at all. Didnt went back to my primary sch. Glad I didn't. Although days in primary sch were memorable but it's all the past. People do change. Hahas but yea... But Who cares? O.o
Anyway I wanna go out tmr!!! No more staying at home. Or else I'm gonna be bored at home. :( okay imma watching ylbfb now~ XG centre parting! Cute or whatt!! :D aww I miss XG so much! Finally I can see him! (: his gonna come Singapore in less than 3 months time! :D awesome Shitzxc~ hahas anyway today's teacher celebration in sch was.... "interesting" HAHA. But I like the concert cause I gotta sit with him! Like aww~ once in a life time thing. Hahas -joke- (: hope his not angry anymore... Yeah and hope his feelings didn't change cause... I'm really scared I might just lose him.
Okay, imma gonna move house this Saturday (: but I got CIP on saturday. My father Is going to scold me for not informing him earlier~ trololol. Hehe imma so excited for my new house, cause I'm gonna get back my computer! I know my computer miss me! Hahas XD okay I'm just talking crap here. Sorry for anyone who read this. I'm just wasting my time and your time (: LOL XD

*you are not alone...
Cause I am here with you... (:

2011-08-31T19:24:00.002+08:00

The feeling of being alone. I hate that. Well but nobody understands that. What the difference like and love? I'm tired, should I? Acting wasn't fun, all the laughter in school were more likely that I'm trying to be happy. But I know very well myself that, I'm still not over you yet. It's already 7+ now... I know you came back. I know probably you dunno what to say to me, or maybe dun wan to talk to me. It's okay. I should have known it by now. Mr chew's words were right... Now me and my friend are in the same situation.... Should we? What's more important....... Why can't I get you out of my mind... Even for a second. Aren't you tired running around in my head? Isit my fault now... I'm afraid. Of losing you. Perhaps I'm losing you now.

2011-08-26T18:04:00.004+08:00

this sweet little called 'LOVE'. to you, my friends, my family and everybody. PEACE YO. ILY :D
if it wasnt you, i wouldn't know how lucky to be in love. thank you. if it wasn't my friends, i wouldn't know how happy i can be when im with them. if it wasn't my family, i wouldn't know what is love. (: i wouldn't want to lose anybody or anything cause everything to me is so important. YOU. YOU. and YOU. (:

im bored like hell....
so yeah (:
ILY JANELLE,
ILY ANRYL,
ILY LAYMEI,
ILY MINGLIANG,
ILY JENEELE,
ILY VANESSA(s),
ILY 2E3,
ILY ADELYN,

I LOVE MYSELF. (: LALALA. byezxc. bored like HELL!

2011-08-26T17:51:00.002+08:00

WHY DO I STILL FEEL SO DOWN WHEN NOTHING IS THERE FOR ME TO WORRY ABOUT? I HOPE YOU ARE HERE FOR ME NOW.... cause IM CRAZY.

2011-08-26T17:40:00.002+08:00

HEYY PEEPS! THERE IS GONNA BE A LONG HOLIDAY COMING AHEAD! YES! -awesome die-
well, today end school early come home early. I SIMPLY HATE THIS WEEK?! so yeah, FML
i just hope next week would be better. MUCH better i hope. but somehow we only come to school for 2 days. aha! awesome shitzxc. i'm so gonna go out this few days... but nobody wants to go out i guess. LONELYGIRL97! :( haizzzzzz..... yepyep. things is better now (: but i think i got moodswing or something. i'll get pissed about things easily. SORRY. but to say the truth, for a moment YOU'VE CHANGED. i was really unhappy about it. :( yes you.

I WANT TO GO OUT!!!!
I WANT TO BE HAPPY!!!
I WANT EVERYTHING TO GO RIGHT!!!
I WANT YOU
I WANT................

kk, i'm watching YLBFB now. (: -funny die me-

2011-08-25T22:14:00.003+08:00

I feel... Argh!! Like yea... I'm sorry for all the ignores and... Mis-communication! Omg omg omg. I so scared suddenly to lose you. I feel scared badly. It's like...after what I heard, my heart aches. I know I asked for it. If I didn't know, i still thought I'm living in my own world being a princess. I know it takes two to complete this happiness... I'll treasure you more now. if you really asked for break up at that time... I guess my feelings wun go so deep like now. To see you for even a second, it's enough. (: you know I need you you badly.

2011-08-23T19:41:00.002+08:00

kinda i really doesn't hope much from you anymore. People tell me how good you are, but what i feel inside is so different. maybe you didn't did it on purpose. somehow, i needa know whats in you. somehow i still feel insecure. somehow i miss you. it was as if we were stranger that never met. we never spoke. and im hurt. im not blaming you, but somehow i feel not yours anymore. can you be mine? for one day? and not on other things that seems more important than me...
-for him.

i purposely walked in the rain cause i wanna get sick. but i guess im still as healthy. LOL. idiotic me cannot get sick. ._. idk whyy~ i just wanna skip school and escaped away! like seriouslyyyy~ i hate how things can turn out like this and doesnt wanna get right. how i wish there were no such problems and i wouldnt have to live my life so.... haiz. idk. i hate somebody like.... ARGH!!! *stare*

2011-08-22T21:13:00.002+08:00

I DUN FEEL LIKE GOING TO SCHOOL TOMMORROW JUST BECOS OF YOU. I'M TIRED OF IT. YESH, EVERYBODY IS TIRED. SO YEAH LIFE SUCKS. I KNOW, YOU KNOW, EVERYBODY KNOW. MY FAULT. MY LIES...

2011-08-22T20:30:00.002+08:00

dearest mingliang~ please dun read my blog :P heheh, i love you. yeah so dun worry be happy! :D lalalalala~

2011-08-19T22:16:00.002+08:00

Thank you everyone who cheered me up today! Im really touched. Hahas. Yeah thanks Laymei, Jan and Anryl for listening to my craps and finally let out what I feel deep inside my heart. (: thankiew my sweethearts! I also wanna thank 2e3 for being an awesome Class~ many ppl try cheering me up with their lame jokes but still im really thankful! Thanks rusyaidi, Aqil, Ameerhan, shi bin, Joel and many more who tried cheer me up! And also not forgetting jw and Julian! Thank you so much. At that moment when everyone take a look at me and cared for me, I feel so fotunate and happy. But the sadness took over me and I couldn't stop the crying. But still everything's fine now (: this week have been a tiring week. Real tired. I've cried, laughed, smiled, serious. All the emotions. But All I wanted was happiness. (: lastly I wanna say happy birthday my best friend rusyaidi! :D sry awesome and best! Hahas. And ILOVEALLTHEPPLWHOISTHEREFORMETODAY! <3 I freaking love all of you!!! Like x10000000 especially my bitches! L,J,A <3 also vanassa, jenelle and ek! Im glad to have them! Thanks for everything everybody. (: I appreciated it.

2011-08-18T20:04:00.002+08:00

Firstly, I need to apologized for a broken promised I make. I'm truly sorry but somehow... I feel so tired out of the sudden. I thought of so much in the bus. And yeah, I almost missed the bus stop that I need to get off. I have nth to comment on this but the two words I wanted to say to you is always 'I'm sorry'. I hope you'll put the smile back on your face. But perhaps you didn't know I did try. Have you realized. What did you gave me in the end? But still.... I'm sorry.

Secondly, I dunno what is he up to again. Im tired of everything. How I wish I could not care like how he doesn't care too. Sometimes I hope I'll never praise him cause each time I praise him... He'll dissapoint me. You may not see it in the outside of me. How much it hurt yet I dun show any in sch, it's when I come home and find myself crying for you. I talk the soft toy but no replies were made. I feel so loney. I hate it. YOU FOREVER NEVER UNDERSTAND ME! I'm I swear I did my best already. I tried talking to you in sch. I tried finding you in all ways. I tried making us look like a couple but still.... Forget it. I wish I know what I can do. Im
Scared I may not control to sent out the message that i'll regret the most. You should go find out how I treat my ex last time, I didn't even give him ANY chance. Yet you? How many chances I've given you? Just seriously... I feel
Like dying.

Lastly, I really feel super unwell now. I did exercise and stretching for like 1hr straight away when I came home. I end up lying on the bed after that and fall asleep. I was super weak at that time. I can feel the dryness in my mouth and the giddyness in my head. Why am I doing this? I was just simply trying to forget everything~ and when I woke up, I feel like never waking up and continue to slp. But I was too hungry! ._. I went to bathe b4 I eat and at the bathroom I almost cannot even hold the shower thing. I touch my forehead I felt the hotness in me. Sick? I think I'm just trying to escape from everything.

I wonder if anybody would read. I wonder if anybody feel the SAME. I wonder if I was ever happy. I wonder if there is a cure for my problem.

2011-08-14T19:53:00.003+08:00

You dun care. You dun care. You dun care AT ALL. I'm tired of getting my hopes up and being disappointed again. I'm not upset, hurt or angry anymore. Im just tired. Tired of putting in more effort than I receive. Tired of holding on for nothing. Tired of believing all your lies. Tired of you proving me wrong everytime. I love you, but do you? Sometimes I just dun feel that. Insecure is how I feel. It's so long since you said you love me. Do you know how much it hurts inside of me. I'm dying in the inside yet nobody sees it. I'm wondering if I really should give up this time. ILY= I'm leaving you. Yeah I shouldnt be giving you are this nonsense of mine. Too much I've expected. You just have to tell me you are tired of me. I'll understand. But all I can say is I really love you. And I'm sorry for loving you.

2011-08-12T19:49:00.003+08:00

I just wanted to let out what I wan. I was wrong. I'm sorry. But everything is too late. How I wish I could nvr face the reality. Cause that's not me. Too many thoughts are in me. Evil and good. I dun expect ppl to believe me, cause I dun believe in myself too. I'm really sorry. But somehow I realise I was nvr happy. Thanks for the 14years. I'm Already half died.

2011-08-10T22:03:00.003+08:00

Goodnight, sweetdreams. <3
I'll always love you. Awww. Heheh. Love you ALL.

P.S Dun come spoiling our friendship. I'll fight with you if you do that. I'm serious you idiot.

2011-08-10T14:58:00.004+08:00

not every sorry can exchange with an 'its okay'.
however sorry i am but i can tell you, i am me. i can't change anymore to suit you. i know i make ppl disapointed in me. i dun feel good either. but i just couldn't do anything. even i cannot control myself. im grateful for everything i have. i'll treasure them.

2011-08-10T14:47:00.002+08:00

i've got 321 post. LOL, and now is 322th post. well there's so much i want to post yet i'm not gonna say anything. i'm keeping too many things inside me. i just wanna find someone to let out. but i know is not good for me to do that. easily trusting people habbit i've got. shouldnt even talk to ppl whom i don't know well. they just simply treat me like targets to bully. awesome shit ppl i know. well well but i've no one to blame, blame myself for being stupid. gawd life's HORRIBlE for me. what else can it be. i just wanna be sick. den i will be able to escape from everything. yes i'm a timid girl that runs away from things. but i'm too tired to think of a best way to solve it. GAWD common test is coming. isn't prepared and everything. i just don't feel happy at all. get it?

2011-08-05T19:17:00.002+08:00

What a joke. How do I believe you like this. Lies. Lies and more lies. Everyone is lying. You can continue enjoy your life you have now. Cause its so much better off without me isn't it? Dun come to me when only you need me. What am I. Maybe just nth in your eyes. Now I feel so alone. But I'll know you'll saying I'm nt. But once agn, the one hurting me is you my dear. I'm tired of living among the lies. I want to stop posting EMO stuffs. But My mood doesn't get any better. Stop hurting me and my feelings. You've CHANGED! :(

2011-08-04T21:08:00.002+08:00

Hiiii! How's life? (:
It hasn't been good for me. I dunno how to say, dun wanna say too. It's tiring and really killing my brain cells. I've headache recently and my vision becomes very blur. Maybe nobody realized, Ive become weaker. I may be laughing and smiling but actually so many things are in my head. Sometime with the addition of the homework and project I have, I really feel like quitting sch. I know I sound like some bad student but I seriously hate the stress against me. Nothing in going right. Omg, whats happening to my life. Where has all the awesome things gone? I miss everything. The old us. The old him. The old her. The old me. Things are all different now. FML. But still I know I can't blame anyone. Yes, I know I dun look like this. Cause everything is just an act.
I still love my friends.
I still love my family.
I still love him.
I still love myself.
But still FML. :/

2011-08-02T17:41:00.002+08:00

i dunno if it is true, i dunno if i should believe. i really is tired about everything. sometimes i wonder why continue living when one day we will eventually die and everything just vanish. i dunno why humans are so weird. i dun even know myself at times. life? such a big word. i dun understand. everyday when i wake up, i feel extremely tired. IS JUST ANOTHER DAY ISN'T IT? forever? it will never happen. always? dun make empty promises. im just an ordinary girl leading an ordinary life.
-piece of shit- hahas XD

2011-08-02T17:31:00.001+08:00

i'm scared losing you. so i just have to keep a distance away from you. the nearer i get, the more im worried. sorry that i love you.

2011-07-25T18:09:00.002+08:00

everyday living my day with worries all day. naive me always try to think that if i do certain things, the day would be a fun one... whereas if i dun do certain things, the day will be horrible. i dunno if its true but i hope one day it will prove me wrong. everyday could be a happy one if i wan... but sometimes things cannot be control. people change, feelings fade. i get hurt and spoil the day. they meant so much to me that losing them could make me insane. i know im overly obsessed about it, but if you try understand me a little deeper, you will know that i'm isn't that strong. i hate the way that things repeat and repeats, it just mean that feelings would get hurt over and over again. actually, to be frank 'JEALOUSY' is how i feel. i hate to see other people laughing, when someone is actually feeling sad. and to be able to cope with everything... i just feel tired after every long day. but actually sometimes friends are the one who cheer me up oftenly. they are awesome. i love them.

today was quite good, everything went smoothly. i hope everyday could be like this (: i really like that happiness feeling. (: okiee im bored bored now. just watched finish zui huo jue ding ai shang ni... (: awesome! heheh, no texts from anyone.............. BORED LIKE SHIT! should start spamming! (: heheh STAY HAPPY JOYCELYN!!! i dun wanna feel sad again.

2011-07-19T20:35:00.001+08:00

＃我很好那麼你呢　想起的我是怎樣的
　當初哭著分不開　現在都能用微笑釋懷
　輕輕問候著　我很好那麼你呢
　離開我　要比從前快樂　眼淚是記得
　而不哭了是懂得　我們都會幸福的＊

I wish I could be happy forever. I dun wanna get sad over things. :') this song is nice nice.

2011-07-13T20:37:00.002+08:00

I really think I have serious moodswing~ but forget it. Sorry for today guys. I know I have been like that this few days... But afterall I could just say that it happens cause I care too much. I think too much, care too much and just simply get hurt that much too. A little thing could hurt me so much. I am becoming weak... And I need someone who will be there for me everytime... Supporting behind me to prevent me from falling. I nvr knew who the person was cause it always change becos of certain reasons. I'm tired of trusting a person too much, cause disappointment is what I get back...
And when you see a person who is always laughing and smiling and one day you see that smile disappear on her face... You should know that it isn't the same as before.
I'm not trying to act weak or smth... I simply need a person who REALLY understand me.

2011-07-12T19:04:00.002+08:00

Just because I'm a strong person, doesnt mean I don't break down when you walk away. Trust me, you mean more than what you think to me. I'll just keep my little wish in my heart hoping it will come true. :')

2011-07-11T19:26:00.002+08:00

I'm tired of lies, tired of saying lies too. I told you this would happen, is just the matter of time.
Maybe I wasn't good enough for you. I cannot imagine how long this would be, but I just know that I really hate it!

2011-07-10T20:15:00.002+08:00

It's a tiring day today... Went out whole day becos of the new house, went to visit the house at pasir ris... Clean up the house a little and went to visit some shops that sells light... But yeah it was expensive and daddy decide to find others. It's seriously very tiring. Haiz. And all I feel now is empty. Nothing is meaningful to me now... I'm tired.

2011-07-09T10:33:00.002+08:00

Morning everyone! (: and obviously no one is reading it~ lalala but shall entertain myself by blogging! ^.^ now everything alright and okay... It's really good to see everyone happy! (: Although Im still faking my smile trying to live my life. Well, who actually understand me? Okie... Today is Saturday~ boring okie! :(

2011-07-07T16:47:00.002+08:00

It's been a long week. And unfortunately today is only thrusday!! Tmr there is dance, and I swear its gonna be a tiring one for sure... But nvm. I shall think positively. (: well let me talk about what happen yesterday and today yea... (:

Wenesday (:
It's a good day yeah!! :D
well well first period was... Chinese... Boring copying those notes. Blahblahblah.
After that was P.E! Funn~ woo yeah had fun with Laymei and sweat alot... We did like consecutive hits for like 20 isit? ^.^ hooray!
Next was English. Boring lessons~
RECESS! I didn't eat! XD only drank the yogurt drink! Niceee!
After recess was history, art and music~ was relaxing much! ^.^ for music we learnt justin bibers "baby!" hahaha XD
After school rush to change for dance. ^.^ teacher very good let us go buy food. (: only ate cheese hotdog for lunch~ DANCE was super tiring!!! :(
Well the best part of the day comes after dance! ^.^ we went canteen to find somebody and I brought Milo there! XD I miss Milo! Hahas den we walk slowly outside school and on the way saw Sean doing some hmm idk what's that! Ahaha, so well walking outside school, I saw ncc. Duh, I look out for him and I saw him (: I wanted to hide and let them go first but I was in a hurry... I was super tired and I wanna go home soon soon! ^.^ I walked out and wave goodbye to jenelle they all and went esso... I swear I walk damm fast! XD brought my YOGURT there! Strawberry flavour~ yumyum! When I went out of esso, I saw him and yeah etc etc... ^.^ I swear I was really happy at that time... (: lalala, bus came early. After awhile, janelle called me and Laymei and her was like shouting! :P and yeah, the bus was quite and I think most ppl can hear them! XD den I went home and practice my piano, sang "karaoke" with my brother and cousin on phone~ my day was kinda awesome lurh! XD that's all for that day...

Thrusday (:
EL CL GG recess HM SFL
Tiring day! Omgg~ I'm dying! Okay I miss him! Somehow... :$ and problems are still not solve... My head damm pain now... Shall stop here Kay! ^.^
Watching YlBFB now~ xiaogui as cute as usual and he mention SINGAPORE!! ^.^ how great is that.... (:

2011-07-05T21:00:00.002+08:00

I lost my ez link and my parents kinda angry... Wts!! Where is it again?? :( why always lose things de me! :( aiya now very 烦... Nights people!

2011-07-05T17:21:00.002+08:00

Hello, just came home from school~ (; really tired yeah. Slept in the bus agn... -_- zzz today was kinda like a busy day... Teachers all teaching new topics tat make my head burst? Hmm and yeah, our class didn't quite understand maths... Buy luckily I was able to keep up (: *proud face* but the only thing Is I got scolded by her! :( wts?
P.E today relaxing (: went up for the stupid standing broad jump thingy~ and yeah result was 170 (: O.o hahas den err went down to join the class after that. They were playing captain's ball in the hot sun! Aww :( but lucky we move up to the sheltered basketball to play.... Me only play awhile den Jocelyn want play... So yeah (; I also dun wan play, good chance to escaped! Muwahaha but poor Jan couldn't find anybody to replace her... Hehe and den me and Jan decided to play among ourself! ROFL Manx! ^.^
Tmr there is P.E again! (: yeah it's the modular thingy! Mine badminton, quite okay ehh... But I noob! :P
Tmr there is alsooo CCA! Omg, dunno good or bad... Cause like it's rly very painful yeah... The warm ups which included "spilts, bridge, etc..." well feel that pain man! Ouch! >.<
Well well, and we had to wear a freaking weird pants to dance -.-" ahaha XD kayy wish me goodluck for Tmr, dun break my limbs can le (:

I'm on diet everyone!! ^.^ dun try to to make me eat so much yeah! (: stay me away from those greasy stuffs! Muwahaha more exercise coming too~ ((: jiayou la fat pig!

2011-07-04T20:52:00.004+08:00

well, finally i get to use computer! its been months since i used it! aww i miss it so much! hehe err yep change my blogskin cause the last one was used for too long already... well i know its nt very nice... but who cares! ^.^

things will be better yeah (:
i know its not that easy to face it everytime, but at the end when we look back on how we actually solve it. we will find ourself learning through these experience and getting to know each other more (: nobody want these things to happen, but everything happens for a reason... we cant choose what kind of life we want. we just have to face it XD i know sometimes i dun feel like facing it too, cause reality do hurts. but escaping isnt the way out :P

hehe tell ya something! ^^ i haven bath yet! oops, its already 9! and there's school tmr~ sianzzz! :( but yeah can see him! <3 it isnt a bad thing after all... (:

2011-07-04T18:42:00.002+08:00

Chatting on the phone was fun! ^.^
But I dunno how long this could last... Cause she might take over me (: you know what I mean. I scared to lose you... The fear in my eyes, clues from my attitude... Hope you understand. Kayy time for my dinner, byeee!

2011-07-04T10:45:00.003+08:00

Oh well you found my Blog isn't it... Ahahahaha! I feel soo errrr werid! Wts. :P yeah after you read, you should know how I feel... But I didn't mean to let you see those things....err yeah, you dun have to take it so seriously... Omg I feel so like caught red handed feeling! Im like running around the house like crazy! Wts, I hope I can brainwash you! Lol XD
lalala, anyway long time no blog....
Well okay today's youth day and we were suppose to like go out... But it failed. :(
hmm cheer up everyone! ^.^ just watch 醉后决定爱上你.... Awesome shit! Xiaogui cute maxx!! :D yea, I'm finding shows to watch to entertain my boring day~ hehe yeah!
Lalala, my cousin say she's going draw me! Ahaha XD I shall post the picture that she draw next time! ^.^ my brother is playing wii now, gonna join him too~ byeee ^.^

Now I finally get a clear look of everything. Everything happens for a reason isnt it?

2011-06-23T21:35:00.002+08:00

Heyhey, it's time I blog something formal. Enough of those stuffs. (:
Monday.
I went to Anryl's house around 2plus? Heheh the sun was hothot! Yeah, I brought a packet of cracker to her house too. Hahas cause I didn't had my lunch. And that packet of cracker is my lunch yeah! ^^ well I was a good girl, I did finish my homework b4 watching the show... Heheh but I copied the answers from Anryl... oops :P wellllll, we watch the "ghost must be crazy"! (if I'm nt wrong) hahaha err yeah it's was nice but abit scary... (: after that we watch some random shows on tv and so qiao that kbs gt "BOF"! Nice show aye. Can watch it again and again. (: that girl is so cute!! ^^ went home at 4:30 when the show ended and reach home about 5plus? (; was a tiring and long ride.

Tuesday
Went swimming with Anryl and her cousins! ((: was fun fun! ^^ went to WWW and got totally sunburn. My face was totally red ttm!! :P hahaha we played in the sun for hours yeah~ cause dun wanna waste money... (: heheh I wanna thanks anryl's Aunty for paying for my ticket, food and etc... :D tyvm! Went home abt 5-6. Reach home quite fast (: I took bus 3 yea! Tiring day but fun day out. (;

Wednesday and today
I spent whole day watching a drama. Lol, kinda old drama... 2004 or earlier? Hahas yeah "tokyo Juliet!" ^^ awesome drama! Got xg!! :D how awesome is that? Heheh yeah and best part of it is that I cried for every episode! :P touching and sad sometimes~ the male lead always get jealous and it's soo cute! ^^ well actually I use that drama to vent out my emotions... The crying was nt only for the show. Every sweet things the couple do in the show... The more I get sad. :') hmm I finished 17ep within two days? ^^ I kinda understand love... Well, I guess I dun have it den. :x it's nt what I can handle. Friends, family, studies are way more important isn't it? (: lalala

Tomorrow
-speechless-

2011-06-23T16:53:00.001+08:00

Hao de shi Qing-song (:

休息是為了走更長的路你就是我的旅途
都是因為你我一直漫步
想要跟你一起走到最後但我遺失了地圖
誰給誰束縛誰比誰辛苦
愛到深處才會領悟

好的事情最後雖然結束
感動時分就有十分滿足
謝謝你是你陪我走過那些路
痛是以後無法再給你幸福

好的事情也許能夠重複
感動時分就算紛紛模糊
不要哭至少你和我記得很清楚
愛是為彼此祝福

想要跟你一起走到最後但我遺失了地圖
誰給誰束縛誰比誰辛苦
愛到深處才會領悟

好的事情最後雖然結束
感動時分就有十分滿足
謝謝你是你陪我走過那些路
痛是以後無法再給你幸福

It totally describe how I feel. Everything will come to an end. Good things doesn't last. :')

2011-03-17T09:55:00.003+08:00

you are wrong. i do care.

2011-03-16T20:46:00.003+08:00

hello~ super bored so just feel like blogging. i know i'm LAME! just came back from cca... was tiring... practised pair by pair~ stressed much! did alot of mistakes! LOL, liu lao shi want us to SMILE! like as if very easy~ falsing a smile on my face! gawd i look horrible! hahas. there still another practised on friday. three hours of training! -fainting- I'M LIKE SUPER BORED NOW! he go tution... hardworking yeah? hehee. wondering where to go tmr... should i go out? hmm or stay at home? well... tmr then see bah (: OH OKAY, i have great news to share!!! A KINDHEARTED PERSON sent my EZ-link card to me! HEHE thanks lots lots yeah!!! i'm like super happy when i received the ez-link card~ super lucky that i no need go make new one... so ma fan! hahas :DD well today is my BROTHER'S BIRTHDAY! hehe HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :DD his not at home so no need buy presents for him :) he is currently staying at my cousin's house... well so he will be celebrating there~ almost every year the same? hahas :D well well... i'm still not in a good mood... but seriously thank those ppl who tried cheering me up and etc... :D
STAY HAPPY PEEPS! although i know life is difficult BUT who cares? YOU HAVE ME! :D hehee whoever is reading this.... SMILE PLEASE! :D

2011-03-16T11:36:00.004+08:00

BOO! well having cca later~ good thing or bad thing? i'm still having this feeling and its getting worser... as days pass by this feeling get stronger. i'm not sure but as memories from the past flash through my mind... i really felt terrible... it was like that all this while isn't it. it was just myself believing that somethings had changed into something better. too much of good things make it look fake. and i finally realised it was fake all this while... i thought i'm a somebody finally but now i realised its still a nobody. yesterday my primary school fren just chatted with me... it was just like AWESOME. me and her quarrel during primary 6, and end up seperating... yesterday's chat was a regreting letter... i letter i sent to her back then during primary 6. so much memories flash through my mind when she finally replied my letter after so long...we all regreted what we did in the past... not treasuring our friendship and keeping the promised we made last time. although everything is fine now but how i wish time could rewind... it really make me regret what have been done in the past. if me and her didn't had this misunderstood i might still been that girl which was nvr brave enough to face things up... cause after we seperated i met new friends, new challenges... it changes my life... you nvr know how great this feeling is... getting everything started again... refreshing my life! cause only like this... troubles will be gone...but not everytime there is a chance to start again... i might as well treasure what i have now. being seen as a strong girl now... ppl might just neglect me thinking its okay... but deep inside me, my heart is fragile. its broken to a million pieces... but did you know... one word or one sentence that YOU said... it can heal back my wound... did you ever realised? it just simply mean how important you are to me...

2011-03-15T19:33:00.003+08:00

am i too sensitive or wat...
i really wanna know what happen, being nt able to know...
i start to blame myself.
my fault isn't it?
i'm bad aren't i?
i know myself the best....
what i've done and everything...
i know sorry doesn't help...
but yet sorry was the only thing i could say...

2011-03-14T19:59:00.002+08:00

its not even a month and i feel like giving up! seriously i dunno whats wrong... i did what i can do... dun expect me to do everything! dun make me regret, boy

2011-03-13T16:42:00.002+08:00

CONFUSED AND IT HURTS! I'm not sure whats happening now... who and who? what wrong again... my fault? I'm wondering when will this stop... is it a trick the god is playing on me? one after another~ my mixed and confused feelings haunting me everyday...
every night's nightmare...
you'll never believe it...
i control my tears cause i knew i cannot cry...
i blame myself as that is the only person that i can blame...
I NEED SOMEONE TO BE MY LISTENING EAR! but... it seems i can't trust anyone...
not even myself...
my parents...
my friends...
everything around me seems to be so messy...
like seriously i feel so alone suddenly.
All those were just a dream yeah...
i'm actually all alone all this while...
i am a nobody to everybody~ life simply sucks!

2011-03-10T18:46:00.002+08:00

okay i know its like super long since i blog last! yepyep! and no one actually visit my blog already... but just feel like blogging suddenly so yeah... if you are reading this then GOOD! (: well recently happen alot alot alot of things... confused vexed angry sad dissapointed! its like seriously very very vexed! dunno what to do, how or what should be done... dunno if i did right or wrong... too much or too little... my fault or his fault... relationships problem SUCKS! cant concentrate in class and everything... ENOUGH! maybe it wasn't a problem to him... but to me... it hurts... deeply... maybe is juz me and my fault~ well friends.... err.... shall nt talk more about it... life simply have to go on no matter what happens.... I SHALL STAY POSITIVE! pleaseplease... dun... ever... make... me... go... mad... again...

2011-01-14T20:52:00.002+08:00

hehe my house :) lol i'm short yeah?! lol cause laymei is tall! haha nvm i dun CARE le! :) haha lol i'm bullied in school yeah? by some crazy womens! haha kinda tired chasing them around! ahh they are evil! haha beware everyone!! well its awesome these days! well juz seriously love it! well it been like 1,2 days nvr watch YLBFB le! misses my XG superb muchie. well listening to his song everyday! (janelle, heard it?) hehe ^^ well short post for today yea? ooh, tmr got performance!!! shit shit shit! lalala, lol wish me good luck yeah. if free come to t-mart and see me! LOL JOKE. hehe kay bye!