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Saturday, October 29, 2011
Am I able to really let you go and forget the past? Really leaving all those messages and memories behind... Im gonna miss everything... Everything that belongs to us. How I wish I could make you fall back for me.... But I'm really just a dumb girl who dun accept the fact. I'm really insane and stupid. Holding on to something that I shouldn't. Visiting your profile everytime and checking if you're online. Even if so... You wun talk. I wun talk. It's still the same. Last time or now... I'm really aching. I can't control my tears as I changed my phone. But now I change back to the old phone again... I decide to at least keep what's beautiful. Not only your texts, but all my awesome friends long and sweet texts. And everytime I read them I'll be like awww. <3 thats why I always keep texts. It's always been what I love to read the most. But everytime I read yours... I know you still mean smth to me. But I hope I'll let you go soon yeah? (: okay it's 11plus now. Goodnight, Sweetdreams. Anddd, I disturb jan's sleep just now. I dun let her sleep! Yeah~ it's funneh. :P Heheh. Byeeeeee. :D Friday, October 21, 2011   lets me post something happy this time round. im suree there still some happy things for me to say, don't i? okayyy, today's post activity was BORING SHIT! hahas but still had fun at certain activities. example: recess! okay im just kidding! heheh. yeapyeap. next week no post exam activities lo... :P those activities so tiring! hahas. but its super sad we dun get to skate!!! :( I WANT. hahaha okayokay. jan told me to post that she is "cute". welll..... hmm jan, see that dog ontop. you are as cute as it! :P heheh. CUTE RITE? okay. fine. i shall stop being so in considerate. later people say i dun care again. well you'll never know what im thinking YO! i just wished SCHOOL ENDS FASTER. get to know what class we go FASTER. den i shall start deciding what to do den.... (: okay everybody, tired me is gonna go sleep now. NIGHTS. ^^ Tuesday, October 18, 2011  how true can this be. i walk pass you, look down and my heart aches. i told myself not to care... i really did. i walk to the toliet... i knew you were there. how come i still went? i must start changing and stop wanting to see you. seriously, i need to forget about it. my friends did stop me at times... thank you (: i just wanted to prove, without you... i'm okay. anyway, I LOVE MY FRIENDS. LOL. love making LOTS of noises in the macdonal, and when we stop laughing... actually the whole place is super quiet! hahaha. XD and everyone who see us will be like "shhh..." heheh, even teachers say im noisy! HELLO! i'm just being sociable here~ kay, i guess I AM OKAY NOW. forget about whats unhappy and move on. (: my results were okay... not too bad (: THANKS GOD AND MY PAPERS! you all did well! :D better den i expect for some... *winks* gotten 5 As! YAY! *shows off* hahaha okayyyy! i KNOW ALOT PEOPLE GOT MORE DEN ME :(( well its alright... i did my best! hmm still haven decide which class to go to.... LALALA. Monday, October 17, 2011 Imy. Do you? Forget it. Goodnight.  Sunday, October 16, 2011 Now everything is wrong... Everything. Whole day stomach pain. I didn't even have a good chat with any of my friends today. He hurt me once again. Family doesn't understand me. Results isn't gonna be good. Want watch drama on com, lag like hell. On phone also lagg. Lay in the bed for whole day. What's life man? Seriously... I want to give up. I want to forget. I want to cry. But I can't, I won't. I know some things... I just didn't say out. How do you know it's not hurting me? How do you know I didn't care? How do you know it doesn't bother me? Or simply... Everybody thinks I'm nothing. The world can abandon me anytime. This is how cruel it is. Face it joycelyn. I'm forever alone. Just like today. Alone. So congrats to those people who wants to see me fall. I'm falling. But I'll smile my way down. I dun need any sympathy. Get it? Friday, October 14, 2011 Hope all of you had fun today. (: Especially you, Laymei! Heheh. :D we planned veryyyyy long de leh. And it's from the bottom of our heart to do all this for you! Heheh. You should be touched!! :') we hoped you really enjoyed today and of course the rest of your life too! Must stay happy forever Kay! Your cheerful attitude make alot of people like you!! So I believe you will find your prince charming soon. (: Heheh. Dun see hot guys face red red urh! Lol XD hmm known you for about 1year plus le~ you have been such an awesome fren and listening to me tok craps everytime... ILY LURH!! <3 SUPERRRR much kayy! Heheh. And the barbie and the three musketeer will stay forever Kay! Next year birthday must celebrate again like this okay! Even more special urh~ :P hehe Qi dai ma? Anywayyyy, HAPPY 14th birthday babe!! :D stay chio urh!! BFF <3 hmm lets plan for the next two birthday girl's birthday together okay? Make them so touched like you! *.^ Heheh. Okayokay... Had fun today. (: I believe everyone is tired... RESTWELL Kay! Goodnight everyone. (: Laymei is finally 14 yo! :D  Wednesday, October 12, 2011 Well I actually stayed up because of art. But also because today... YOU officially is free now. Congrats den. Sorry for all those burdens to you. Yea, I look like a total fool. Y'know. Telling how much I still love you? And you just had the 'finally free' mood. Yea you're happy... What about me? Perhaps thats what I wanted too. Freedom. Cause it's seriously so tiring. Since you don't know how to treasure me, its time I treasure myself. Thanks alot on how you settle this. You made me loss 100% hope for you back. Goodbye. Kayy time to sleep. Nights. Thursday, October 6, 2011 I have no confidence in this. I feel that something gonna go wrong... Something thats gonna hurt me. Insecure, I feel like dying. I'm worried my friends will leave me. It's so hard for me to stay with them as I realize myself having serious jealousy problem and attitude problem. .__. I knew it but I couldn't change... Wow. In the other hand, I was not sure if he love me anymore. Cause I felt that I give in more than I received.... I dun understand why he cant tell me those things he kept inside, I told him everything. Distance are drifting? Im afraid to lose you. But I should head for their advice... If you kept me just for the sake of keeping me... I should let go. Y'know, I really wished I meant something in you. Like how I do. But the most worrying thing now is gh exams. I think I'm gonna die. 8more papers to go. I didn't have any confidence in any of the papers. NONE. But people around me were all so confident... I'm so worried my results gonna drop like shit... It's really really the worse thing that could happen to me this year as I actually wasted my whole year getting this kind of results. I truly hope that god can bless me and make my wish come true. (: I hope that my friends will forever remain as my best friends no matter what happen. Hold me tight, dun let me fall. Please. The 4 of us has gone through so many things... If it not happy den it's not the ending. We will end up to be really really best friends cause I believe in us. (: Heheh. Wednesday, October 5, 2011 Okay can. Sunday, October 2, 2011  i'm so tired. wow. so many too say yet speechless now... carry on with life, just gonna work on my exams now. BUT MY FREAKING BRAIN DOESN'T WANT TO LISTEN! :/ i hope someone kill me now, what on earth is happening to me? |
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