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Wednesday, August 31, 2011
The feeling of being alone. I hate that. Well but nobody understands that. What the difference like and love? I'm tired, should I? Acting wasn't fun, all the laughter in school were more likely that I'm trying to be happy. But I know very well myself that, I'm still not over you yet. It's already 7+ now... I know you came back. I know probably you dunno what to say to me, or maybe dun wan to talk to me. It's okay. I should have known it by now. Mr chew's words were right... Now me and my friend are in the same situation.... Should we? What's more important....... Why can't I get you out of my mind... Even for a second. Aren't you tired running around in my head? Isit my fault now... I'm afraid. Of losing you. Perhaps I'm losing you now. Friday, August 26, 2011  this sweet little called 'LOVE'. to you, my friends, my family and everybody. PEACE YO. ILY :D
if it wasnt you, i wouldn't know how lucky to be in love. thank you. if it wasn't my friends, i wouldn't know how happy i can be when im with them. if it wasn't my family, i wouldn't know what is love. (: i wouldn't want to lose anybody or anything cause everything to me is so important. YOU. YOU. and YOU. (: im bored like hell.... so yeah (: ILY JANELLE, ILY ANRYL, ILY LAYMEI, ILY MINGLIANG, ILY JENEELE, ILY VANESSA(s), ILY 2E3, ILY ADELYN, I LOVE MYSELF. (: LALALA. byezxc. bored like HELL!  WHY DO I STILL FEEL SO DOWN WHEN NOTHING IS THERE FOR ME TO WORRY ABOUT? I HOPE YOU ARE HERE FOR ME NOW.... cause IM CRAZY.
HEYY PEEPS! THERE IS GONNA BE A LONG HOLIDAY COMING AHEAD! YES! -awesome die- well, today end school early come home early. I SIMPLY HATE THIS WEEK?! so yeah, FML i just hope next week would be better. MUCH better i hope. but somehow we only come to school for 2 days. aha! awesome shitzxc. i'm so gonna go out this few days... but nobody wants to go out i guess. LONELYGIRL97! :( haizzzzzz..... yepyep. things is better now (: but i think i got moodswing or something. i'll get pissed about things easily. SORRY. but to say the truth, for a moment YOU'VE CHANGED. i was really unhappy about it. :( yes you. I WANT TO GO OUT!!!! I WANT TO BE HAPPY!!! I WANT EVERYTHING TO GO RIGHT!!! I WANT YOU I WANT................ kk, i'm watching YLBFB now. (: -funny die me- Thursday, August 25, 2011 I feel... Argh!! Like yea... I'm sorry for all the ignores and... Mis-communication! Omg omg omg. I so scared suddenly to lose you. I feel scared badly. It's like...after what I heard, my heart aches. I know I asked for it. If I didn't know, i still thought I'm living in my own world being a princess. I know it takes two to complete this happiness... I'll treasure you more now. if you really asked for break up at that time... I guess my feelings wun go so deep like now. To see you for even a second, it's enough. (: you know I need you you badly. Tuesday, August 23, 2011 kinda i really doesn't hope much from you anymore. People tell me how good you are, but what i feel inside is so different. maybe you didn't did it on purpose. somehow, i needa know whats in you. somehow i still feel insecure. somehow i miss you. it was as if we were stranger that never met. we never spoke. and im hurt. im not blaming you, but somehow i feel not yours anymore. can you be mine? for one day? and not on other things that seems more important than me... -for him. i purposely walked in the rain cause i wanna get sick. but i guess im still as healthy. LOL. idiotic me cannot get sick. ._. idk whyy~ i just wanna skip school and escaped away! like seriouslyyyy~ i hate how things can turn out like this and doesnt wanna get right. how i wish there were no such problems and i wouldnt have to live my life so.... haiz. idk. i hate somebody like.... ARGH!!! *stare* Monday, August 22, 2011 I DUN FEEL LIKE GOING TO SCHOOL TOMMORROW JUST BECOS OF YOU. I'M TIRED OF IT. YESH, EVERYBODY IS TIRED. SO YEAH LIFE SUCKS. I KNOW, YOU KNOW, EVERYBODY KNOW. MY FAULT. MY LIES... dearest mingliang~ please dun read my blog :P heheh, i love you. yeah so dun worry be happy! :D lalalalala~ Friday, August 19, 2011 Thank you everyone who cheered me up today! Im really touched. Hahas. Yeah thanks Laymei, Jan and Anryl for listening to my craps and finally let out what I feel deep inside my heart. (: thankiew my sweethearts! I also wanna thank 2e3 for being an awesome Class~ many ppl try cheering me up with their lame jokes but still im really thankful! Thanks rusyaidi, Aqil, Ameerhan, shi bin, Joel and many more who tried cheer me up! And also not forgetting jw and Julian! Thank you so much. At that moment when everyone take a look at me and cared for me, I feel so fotunate and happy. But the sadness took over me and I couldn't stop the crying. But still everything's fine now (: this week have been a tiring week. Real tired. I've cried, laughed, smiled, serious. All the emotions. But All I wanted was happiness. (: lastly I wanna say happy birthday my best friend rusyaidi! :D sry awesome and best! Hahas. And ILOVEALLTHEPPLWHOISTHEREFORMETODAY! <3 I freaking love all of you!!! Like x10000000 especially my bitches! L,J,A <3 also vanassa, jenelle and ek! Im glad to have them! Thanks for everything everybody. (: I appreciated it. Thursday, August 18, 2011 Firstly, I need to apologized for a broken promised I make. I'm truly sorry but somehow... I feel so tired out of the sudden. I thought of so much in the bus. And yeah, I almost missed the bus stop that I need to get off. I have nth to comment on this but the two words I wanted to say to you is always 'I'm sorry'. I hope you'll put the smile back on your face. But perhaps you didn't know I did try. Have you realized. What did you gave me in the end? But still.... I'm sorry. Secondly, I dunno what is he up to again. Im tired of everything. How I wish I could not care like how he doesn't care too. Sometimes I hope I'll never praise him cause each time I praise him... He'll dissapoint me. You may not see it in the outside of me. How much it hurt yet I dun show any in sch, it's when I come home and find myself crying for you. I talk the soft toy but no replies were made. I feel so loney. I hate it. YOU FOREVER NEVER UNDERSTAND ME! I'm I swear I did my best already. I tried talking to you in sch. I tried finding you in all ways. I tried making us look like a couple but still.... Forget it. I wish I know what I can do. Im Scared I may not control to sent out the message that i'll regret the most. You should go find out how I treat my ex last time, I didn't even give him ANY chance. Yet you? How many chances I've given you? Just seriously... I feel Like dying. Lastly, I really feel super unwell now. I did exercise and stretching for like 1hr straight away when I came home. I end up lying on the bed after that and fall asleep. I was super weak at that time. I can feel the dryness in my mouth and the giddyness in my head. Why am I doing this? I was just simply trying to forget everything~ and when I woke up, I feel like never waking up and continue to slp. But I was too hungry! ._. I went to bathe b4 I eat and at the bathroom I almost cannot even hold the shower thing. I touch my forehead I felt the hotness in me. Sick? I think I'm just trying to escape from everything. I wonder if anybody would read. I wonder if anybody feel the SAME. I wonder if I was ever happy. I wonder if there is a cure for my problem. Sunday, August 14, 2011 You dun care. You dun care. You dun care AT ALL. I'm tired of getting my hopes up and being disappointed again. I'm not upset, hurt or angry anymore. Im just tired. Tired of putting in more effort than I receive. Tired of holding on for nothing. Tired of believing all your lies. Tired of you proving me wrong everytime. I love you, but do you? Sometimes I just dun feel that. Insecure is how I feel. It's so long since you said you love me. Do you know how much it hurts inside of me. I'm dying in the inside yet nobody sees it. I'm wondering if I really should give up this time. ILY= I'm leaving you. Yeah I shouldnt be giving you are this nonsense of mine. Too much I've expected. You just have to tell me you are tired of me. I'll understand. But all I can say is I really love you. And I'm sorry for loving you. Friday, August 12, 2011 I just wanted to let out what I wan. I was wrong. I'm sorry. But everything is too late. How I wish I could nvr face the reality. Cause that's not me. Too many thoughts are in me. Evil and good. I dun expect ppl to believe me, cause I dun believe in myself too. I'm really sorry. But somehow I realise I was nvr happy. Thanks for the 14years. I'm Already half died. Wednesday, August 10, 2011 Goodnight, sweetdreams. <3 I'll always love you. Awww. Heheh. Love you ALL. P.S Dun come spoiling our friendship. I'll fight with you if you do that. I'm serious you idiot.  not every sorry can exchange with an 'its okay'.
however sorry i am but i can tell you, i am me. i can't change anymore to suit you. i know i make ppl disapointed in me. i dun feel good either. but i just couldn't do anything. even i cannot control myself. im grateful for everything i have. i'll treasure them. i've got 321 post. LOL, and now is 322th post. well there's so much i want to post yet i'm not gonna say anything. i'm keeping too many things inside me. i just wanna find someone to let out. but i know is not good for me to do that. easily trusting people habbit i've got. shouldnt even talk to ppl whom i don't know well. they just simply treat me like targets to bully. awesome shit ppl i know. well well but i've no one to blame, blame myself for being stupid. gawd life's HORRIBlE for me. what else can it be. i just wanna be sick. den i will be able to escape from everything. yes i'm a timid girl that runs away from things. but i'm too tired to think of a best way to solve it. GAWD common test is coming. isn't prepared and everything. i just don't feel happy at all. get it? Friday, August 5, 2011 What a joke. How do I believe you like this. Lies. Lies and more lies. Everyone is lying. You can continue enjoy your life you have now. Cause its so much better off without me isn't it? Dun come to me when only you need me. What am I. Maybe just nth in your eyes. Now I feel so alone. But I'll know you'll saying I'm nt. But once agn, the one hurting me is you my dear. I'm tired of living among the lies. I want to stop posting EMO stuffs. But My mood doesn't get any better. Stop hurting me and my feelings. You've CHANGED! :( Thursday, August 4, 2011 Hiiii! How's life? (: It hasn't been good for me. I dunno how to say, dun wanna say too. It's tiring and really killing my brain cells. I've headache recently and my vision becomes very blur. Maybe nobody realized, Ive become weaker. I may be laughing and smiling but actually so many things are in my head. Sometime with the addition of the homework and project I have, I really feel like quitting sch. I know I sound like some bad student but I seriously hate the stress against me. Nothing in going right. Omg, whats happening to my life. Where has all the awesome things gone? I miss everything. The old us. The old him. The old her. The old me. Things are all different now. FML. But still I know I can't blame anyone. Yes, I know I dun look like this. Cause everything is just an act. I still love my friends. I still love my family. I still love him. I still love myself. But still FML. :/ Tuesday, August 2, 2011 i dunno if it is true, i dunno if i should believe. i really is tired about everything. sometimes i wonder why continue living when one day we will eventually die and everything just vanish. i dunno why humans are so weird. i dun even know myself at times. life? such a big word. i dun understand. everyday when i wake up, i feel extremely tired. IS JUST ANOTHER DAY ISN'T IT? forever? it will never happen. always? dun make empty promises. im just an ordinary girl leading an ordinary life. -piece of shit- hahas XD i'm scared losing you. so i just have to keep a distance away from you. the nearer i get, the more im worried. sorry that i love you. |
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