Thursday, September 23, 2010
 today, i saw the smiles on your face. i am glad for the smiles.:D thanks guys! but the smiles that you gave me make me feel very guilty. without me, your can also be happy or even happier. i was thinking i am the one who spoil the fun who had? i can't stop blaming myself for everything. not only sorry to them...but sorry to everybody that i ignore, show face, tok bad things about b4...etc...i reflected, to me maybe i wasn't but to others they think i am. cuz i realised my emotions on my face look a bit different to what i am thinking inside. maybe i wasn't angry but my facial expression shows that... i am seriously wondering should i go back with your...i am scared the smiles on your de face... i scared i do things wrong again and hurt your once again. i can't control myself sometimes. i feel so guilty to drag your along with me about this. its just me and my bad habits again, hurting your over and over again. i just want your to think carefully whether to trust me again that i won't hurt your again... i myself hate myself now. if your hate me or wat...i understand. i know since things have been ok now i should bring it up again. but i feel so guilty not knowing wat to do. i can't cling on to vanessa always... she have amable, and i dun wanna break them...so, i rly gonna rly rly rly find a way, whether by hook or crook! to change this freaking habits of mine!:( ... lastly i gonna say sorry to everyone i hurt troughout the years. peeps: anryl, laymei, janelle, eugenia, adelyn, meiting, vanessa, etc... |
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